Sunday, June 7, 2009

Silly Point..



There seems to be something that is holding me back from blogging. Now whatever that is, it surely has taken much of my space and time. I find it funny that I myself am not able to figure that. Strange.. very strange. Life seems like moving on a straight line at its own pace. It just refuses to listen and I don't force it either. What would you do if lies seem more believable, when it becomes difficult to digest the truth..  I think its deja-vu that I am experiencing. Its all relative isn't it.. Whatever it is, I have realized that no point in thinking it over especially when it seems nothing more than a silly point. And I believe whatever happens, its all for good..  :) 


I will be back. (Arnold Schwarzenegger style, yeah.!!)



P.S.1 : I am on cloud nine these days. I get to go home more often. Deccans have won the IPL trophy. I wish they had played well in the last edition when I actually had watched all their matches just to find myself disappointed then. Gilly rocks. Some of my friends got married and one of my friends got engaged few days back..  :)   Guys.. my best wishes to you all. Happy for ya.


PS.2 : Right now I am addicted to James Blunt, Savage Garden, Pink Floyd and Evanescence. (ARR addiction is all time.. )


Saturday, February 14, 2009

An old tag : Fifty Five lives - Top Ten Countdown

This one is an old tag though i had thought of posting it earlier, i just couldn't. It made an interesting read when i had read the post by Barath (who had tagged me then). And btw, it is not a lengthy one, or is it.

Ten realizations :
10) I can't live without music.
9) It is impossible for me to fake successfully.
8) I can never understand a girl (though I don’t have to.., or do i ve to).
7) The simplest things have the greatest lessons.
6) I end up hurting others (unintentionally).
7) I never learn from my mistakes.
5) Never take someone for granted.
4) I hate being ignored.
3) Sometimes, It is better to listen to your heart than your mind.
2) That, I am hated for being myself.
1) God has a plan for everyone.

Nine things I'm glad that :
9) I'm alive.
8) My life has some purpose.
7) I've got some brains (and they’ll tell you, I'm not a moron).
6) I'm a musician and a (ok, fine.. self-acclaimed) singer.
5) I don't smoke.
4) I've got some very good friends.
3) I've sweetest elder sisters.
2) I've the best mom and dad.
1) God is there for me whenever I want.

Eight things I badly wanna
8) Become a pop star in the future.
7) Meet A.R.Rahman and take a lesson or two from the maestro.
6) Go on a dream date with my dream girl and sing a love song to her.
5) Do all those crazy things i never did.
4) Do something for this country.
3) Convey all that I could never say to some in the past.
2) Live to see my dreams come true.
1) Go on a transcendental tour.

Seven things I often tell myself
7) Just do it.
6) Nothing is difficult or impossible to achieve.
5) Don't you ever forget God.
4) Don't bother about what others say or think of you. Just be yourself.
3) Take life as it comes.
2) Just chill and relax.
1) Never make others feel uncomfortable.

Six People I wanna thank now
All my team mates.

Five things I believe
5) Music
4) Dreams
3) Love
2) Miracle
1) Spirituality

Four people I tag
4)
Manasa
3)
Sinivaali
2)
Validus Varon
1)
Rajesh

Three confessions
3) I'm an egoist.
2) I lose my temper too often.
1) I often get lost in the world of my own thoughts.

Two promises
2) I shall live my life in a way that I’ll have no regrets at the end of it.
1) I shall never break any promise I make.

One Prayer
1) Sarve janah sukhino bhabantu.


P.S. : Today happens to be my elder sister's birthday.! I pray and wish you get all the happiness in your life akka. You and sandhya akka are the bestest sisters.. :) And of course, this is the day dedicated to love. In my belief one needs no reason to celebrate love and it doesn't necessarily have to have a day to be celebrated. Coz, it is the eternal truth and we all are embodiments of love. Mr "M" recommends the movie 'Love actually' to watch, and the OSTs from the movie 'A Walk to Remember' to listen to, featuring Mandy Moore, Switchfoot and others, on this V'Day. So I ll stop here with a passage from Corinthians about love (that i had read from the book, A Walk to Remember) and i tell you, it did strike me out of the blue.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes."


Wednesday, December 31, 2008

My Picks from the Year 2008..

Some time back, I was wondering 'which hindi movie would take away the honor for the best Hindi movie of the year 2008?' Now bollywood is all about biggies, the Khans, the Yash Rajs or the Johars. So I thought no use asking myself rhetorical questions. Wait a sec.. I have a blog and I can as well put it all together. So here it is. This is a post all about stuff from the year 2008 that I thought was best and happening. Now, this isn't complete in any way and its only what i liked the most. Apart from the world without, this year personally has been quite an experience for the world within me.. So I have put a few things (randomly) that the year 2008 had for me.

The song of the year : "Kahin to hogi woh". A love track from Jaane tu ya jaane na.

The album : Jaane tu ya jaane na.

The lyrics for a song : 'Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye' (Ghajini), Prasoon joshi.

The actors : Vinay Pathak (Dasvidaniya) and Heath ledger (The Dark Knight).

The movie(s) : English - The Dark Knight and Hindi - Dasvidaniya.

The dialogue : "You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain."

The music director : A.R. Rahman. (Jodha akbar, Ada, JTYJN, Yuvvraj, Ghajini).

The sports person : Abhinav Bindra.

The cute (ah!) and the gorgeous : Asin.

The makeover : Aamir Khan.

The real find : Farhan Akhtar (as a singer), Yousuf Pathan (in IPL), Imran Khan (JTYJN).



And now, some of me in 2008..

The book I loved reading
: The English Teacher by R.K. Narayan.

The most satisfying moment : Performing the song, kahin to hogi woh (so close to my heart) in front of my colleagues at Hyderabad.

The biggest surprise : Actress Revathy's visit to the University of Hyderabad. It was indeed a pleasure interacting with the gorgeous lady.

The moment of success
: My M.Tech. project presentation. Can't believe, how much did I swoon over that.


The bitter moment(s)
: Bitter (read as better) ! nah.. its all been going great and even though I had some bitter moments this year, they were all for good and I loved them. (ahem.. what a nerd!!)


The thought I got
convinced : If you are clear about what you want. what you need and what you deserve, nothing in life would ever again seem like a bolt from the blue.

I hated saying
: 'Good bye' to my friends while relocating.


The dream(s) come true
: Not yet (i believe).

The language (not the programming language eh!) I tried (I repeat "I tried") learning : Tamil

The major stride
: From university life to work-life.


I danced to the tunes of
: 'Mauja hi mauja' and other punjabi tracks in the DJ night @ UoH.


The place I liked visiting
: Chennai
.

I caught up with : Paresh, Rakesh, Prashanth, Basanti (my high school friends) after like more than nine years. And.. Satya, Hemanth, Dillip, Priyanka (my 11th & 12th std buddies) after seven years.

The movie I connected to : Rock on.


(And this is a big one)..

The best gadget I got myself : (My) MacBook *.. :-)



Why so serious ??

From Untitled Album


I wish you all love, joy, peace and hope this New Year, 2009. May the dawn bring with it everlasting joy, prosperity and moments you'll cherish. The new horizons await you..


*All bragging rights NOT reserved. And btw, an "Apple" a day does keep the doctor away.. :-)

Monday, December 22, 2008

Soul'd out..


With so many things happening so fast, I only can say that the year has been no less than a roller-coaster ride for me. It was good, it was bad and it was ugly at times. Now that I don't have a series of exams to write or the compulsory classes to attend, I can say I am no more a "university student". I have got no more of university going life left for this year marked a start of new but different phase in my life although i believe education is for life and not just for making a living. It was a mixture of many feelings as the part of me was still unsure if it was ready to make the phase transition. Now i believe it couldn't have come at a better time. The past couple of months that saw a different kind of tsunami in the markets with the global economic meltdown making sure none of the private sectors were left unaffected. I wonder what is next ? Worst even was the terror attacks in Mumbai. How much more monstrous can an act of terror be ?


The year so far has been full of surprises for me, although I am not sure if I wanted them. I must say I had a very trying year with me not realizing the cause or the effect of the sequence of events unfolding in my life. Someone rightly said, God will always test a good man, but will never let him down. I know God has never let me down but HIS tests are never that obvious, are they ? They leave me completely soul'd out yet they never make me feel a lost soul. At times, it was me being the sole reason for discomfort to some. May be the helping part of me was equally busy hurting others, may be I was not being myself. I am not the sort of person to wallow in self-pity but only I know, how much did I hate myself then. Was it me ? Rubbing people up the wrong way. I don't know. All I know is that I have taken myself out with two words to myself.. "move on". It is not always what you see is what you get (or is it ?) and I have almost learnt to live with these surprises. Sometimes exciting and sometimes depressing. There is something about them that make life more fascinating. For some others, the twists and turns of the roller-coaster ride that life takes one through leaves one with a bitter and 'I-better-forget-that' kinda experience. Thats life for you. It can never be predictable, can it be ? But then, God doesn't play dice either, nor does he want us to i believe for the theory of probability unfortunately (or fortunately) can not be extended to the real life. Its the theory of living in the present that i believe in.

No matter how much the past may bother one, the fact is the past is unchangeable. The past is supposed to make us not repeat our own mistakes and I have learnt it in a hard way. At times circumstances have demanded me to act strange (may be even weird) and me not having learnt from my mistakes, didn't wimp out of it. There's many things i wish i didn't do. Now I know one mustn't make the same mistake twice and if one is clever enough he would learn from others' mistakes too. Future, in my belief is all about achieving one's goals and dreams. Dreams have their own place in everyone's life. Of what use is a life if only it is lived without any dreams. They set a standard for oneself and they have the quality that drives one to turn them into reality. Future isn't something that one needs to wait and watch it getting unfolded. Its all about make it happen and fate isn't blamed for anything for they believe they make their own fate. One can never deny the fact that, the past has a definite influence in one's life and the present in turn makes way for future. There has to be a balance maintained though to make the most now and that.. happens when one lives in the present. Nothing happens in life without a reason, be it the people we meet or the happiness or sadness that some incidents bring in our life.. it is only to make us stronger. Some might believe, life just hurts all the time. Oh, yeah ? Then one should picture one's life with only happier times with no bad patches. I bet one can never appreciate the brightness of the day unless one has seen the darkness that night brings with it. Its only one chance we have got to live this life with choice left to us. Life isn't all about just living it the way it wants us to. It is also about showing life the way we want to live it and the path we take matters the most for a gun can be used to kill a terrorist or to take an innocent's life. Perceptions do make a difference to our lives. All the hurt and agony that life may bring in one's life can never equal the sweetness of a single moment of joy. Its not enough to accept life for what it is. One must also learn to accept life for what it is not and surrender oneself completely to the Almighty..



Sunday, December 21, 2008

I m alive..

Well, it seems like allz going good with me but for my blog. Yes, I am alive though its been ages since I posted something here (and that really makes me feel bad). Hope i get over this laziness of mine. Now there is something I (rather my blog has) received that made me wonder 'wowww, where did that come from ?' Its the award for my blog. The Freedom and Independent award from Barath. I dont know if I deserve it though but thanks a lot Barath for considering this blog worthy of this award. You do have a lovely blog dude and it has remained (and will always remain) an inspiration for my blog.


I would like to forward this award to the following bloggers.

1) Ajay - In love with life. A friend, techie, a musician and a blog buddy.. an inspiring blog indeed.

2) Karthik Prashant - The corner coffee table. A personal blog with a view of life from a different angle, a lovely blog brother.

3) Madhumita - I, Me, Myself. One of the most beautiful and colorful blogs. Simply superb.

4) Validus varon (a.ka. Fortis viator) - Chronicles of Fortis. A friend, a writer with a difference. Dude, your blog rocks.

5) Rampy - Just a thought. A techie, friend and a blog buddy. I don't miss a thing of this one.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Guest Post : The life and the love of balconies

This is the second in the series of guest posts. This time its my friend Barath ( a fellow blogger), has something to share on my blog and I am more than happy to have his writings here. Thanks a ton barath.. Dude, you write so very well.. But before that I also have a confession to make. I haven't been updating my blog or rather I have become lazy enough to write something for my blog, thanks to my seemingly busy schedule and my thoughts that keep me as busy as the other things in my life. okay, i ll try to become lil bit more active, but for now read this gem of a post (easily one of the best posts of my blog) that will make you fall in love.. with the 'balcony' of course :) .


The Life and the Love of Balconies


A lazy noon or be it the early morning hues of the sun or the orange dusk of the sky or a star-lit night in either a lonely space with clothes hung to dry or a fun filled moment with the family, Balconies are the most integral part of one's life. So is the terrace. It is the heart of the home, rather an home in itself. It gives out the best feeling of being at home. The magic of moonlight slyly sneaking onto you, when you're either a busy battering brain, sitting with a pen and a mind totally in action, or a laziness doused on the cold floor with a book at an unearthly hour. Lost in your train of thought-less thoughts. The magic is multiplied with the myriad magnificence of moods.

I remember falling in love at a very young age with this place, Balcony-The heart of the home. Balconies hold a prominent place in the growing up years, for that matter even in the days of grown-ups too. The sight of a child in the lap of a grand-parent in the rocking chair either listening to a story or a shout to the parent inside, "Amma inga vaaven" for a minute's sight outside. somebody walking to and fro in the balcony with a text-book in hand, somebody relaxing with music plugged in. The sight of a dreamy deary one passing in the bike when the lady-love is busy in a idle-chat with mom in the balcony.


Growing up with balconies provides the solace in love and comfort with the re-assurance of the knowledge that there is someone-always-there-for-you. The shutting of the balcony door after a fight with dad/mom/sibling. The furious made-up-mad-mood till someone comes to pacify you. The comfort when mom brings food to the balcony and feeds you, The sight of the pet lying next to you, waiting to be petted. The sight of dad returning home after a day's work, the shout in joy when seeing a friend. The watching of rainbow with the sibling after a downpour.

When life beckons you in Joy or sorrow, Balcony with its wistful looks waits for you, to let you into its life. The moments cried in hurt and humiliation, The vent-up anger, Those failures, The Failed first love, fight with a friend, loss of a loved one, the bottled envy and frustration. The planned secret first meeting, the chance meeting of him/her in the terrace. The long hours of chronic-conversations, the laid-back night with the silver hues of the moonlit night sky and a mobile leaning onto the pillar with the conversation continuing till the dawn. The meeting of the newly-weds for a private conversation. The look of the colored wall after the Holi celebrations.

The long conversation with an old friend while catching up after a long-time. The talk that easily shifts from the new job to the recently read-book to the mega-flop Drona to the still-missed The Dark Knight and The Kung-fu Panda or listening to the magic of music when someone plays a music instrument.

Life is when you live. The life ahead with a promising newness to everything. The million dreams and a zillion hope that one life has in store to offer. The painful yet an exciting truth that life is all about moving on. The enlightened knowledge that these beautiful moments of life gives is an immense joy. The understanding that at times life is more like the sight from a balcony. The detachment only comes from the true attachment. All those insightful-inevitable moments of life is witnessed only by the sole-soul of the home-Balconies.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Jaane tu... ya jaane na...

Its been a while since I watched a movie that has so much in it and yet a very simple and would-like-to-watch-it-again kinda movie. "Jaane tu.. ya jaane na.." has no great story neither is it a new concept. But it manages to keep the interest of the audience going. The story revolves round two (best) friends.. Aditi and Jai. They give most of their time to each other during their five years of college life but fail to realize that they indeed love each other. As the saying goes, "The grass is greener on the other side", you get to see exactly the same thing happening in their lives. And thats not all.. At one point in the movie, it seems like "The grass isn't green anywhere" for Aditi and Jai. Everyone thinks that they both are perfect for each other (including their parents). But they both seem to be in a state of denial. The rest of the story is anyone's guess and a numerous cliches from 'Kuch kuch hota hai' to 'Dil chahta hai' can be found in this movie. But the element of humor (from silly to satiric n sarcastic n obscure) stands out. Some scenes in fact might leave you perplexed/ puzzled (whether to laugh or to cry ?). Like the one in which Jai's mother talks to her late (framed) husband where she argues over her husband's act of war that led to his death. Another such scene is where meghna tries to laugh looking at her parents fight, so that she could hide all the hurt inside.

Rahman's music is mind blowing (yes, it is.. you might not find it the very first time you listen, but surely you will fall in love with the music if you listen to it over and over again.. thats so very typical Rahmanish). The background score surely adds a lot of value to the movie and as always this time too, his music perfectly blends into some of the (situational) songs. "Kahin to hogi woh" is one such song which would make you feel 'wanna fall in love'. In fact when I first heard this one, the immediate thought then was.. this is a kind of a song that one would like to play for his loved one on a candle light dinner on a date (I am actually listening to it right now, whilst writing this blogpost.. :) ). And "Jaane tu.. ya jaane na" sung by Sukhwinder singh is a masterpiece indeed.. Hats off to Mr. Mozart of Madras..

All in all, the movie is a must watch. It portrays relationships and all its complexity to perfection. Be it the brother-sister, the father-mother, the husband-wife or the girl friend-boy friend.. different aspects of a relationship have been depicted with the humor making sure the lighter side of it is not lost. I am sure anyone watching this movie would relate himself(/herself) to any of the characters at some point or the other. I guess the filmy touch to this (otherwise very) non-filmy movie comes only at the end where the story ends at the airport. I don't know(/understand) if the movie aims at creating illusions hiding the truth or depicting the truth hiding the illusions as I felt both were equally embedded into the storyline. This movie would take you through a journey that has a lot of twists and turns with none of them being apparent and as obvious as it might seem, yet at the end of it you shouldn't be surprised if you are made to believe that the journey was as smooth as any other journey you have been through in the past.. thats 'Jaane tu.. ya jaane na' for you... Watch it and I bet your heart wont be left untouched..

So.. When do you know its love ??
Jaane tu .. ya jaane na..


Sunday, June 22, 2008

An era in an hour...




Time is a strange phenomenon.. Sometimes it gives you a feeling that you have spent ages at the end of which you get a realization that it was only an hour that has gone by. Is it magic or is it the theory of relativity ? Name it whatever you like.. and my recent visit to the Golconda fort had it all. Places of historic importance have never failed to baffle me. I have always wondered, what if I could go back in time and witness all that is history now. It took me some time to realize that I was right at a place which has seen the ages of civilizations flourishing and perishing. The very place where the kings had their headquarters, many great battles were fought and many a love stories had blossomed.

A lovely evening, a narration haunting enough.. Add to that the (very apt) light effects, Golconda seemed to beckon me. An hour long light and sound show had almost transcended me to the times of the Nawabs.. I didn't know if I had lost myself in the glorious history of the past all the while the narration went on.
It felt like every single event was unfolding right in front of my eyes. Golconda which was the backbone of the dynasty then had been a witness to some of the lurid battles. I wonder what all it has been put through in the past. To think that Golconda fort is just a tourist destination would be a great mistake. It certainly is more than that. It stands testimony for the bravery of the Hyderabadi Nawabs and the courage possessed by the warriors. No wonder, every now and then the tourists are taken on a unique tour back in time and it would continue to do so in the future..

Aadab Golconda, aadab Hyderabad..






























Friday, May 23, 2008

Guest Post : A memory called Mano anna..

Well... this is a new thing, I am experimenting with my blog.. Ever heard of guest appearances in movies.. yeah something like that !! I had invited someone to write for my blog and this is the first ever guest post! :) Now as promised to the author, the name the author is not going to be revealed.. You may find the concept of remaining anonymous a bit strange and "why would one like to remain anonymous ?" . Believe me, writing anonymous articles gives one the freedom to express oneself best and its not a new concept anyway.. So read on !!


A memory called Mano Anna.

Recounting memories of someone is a tiring process, yet there are certain memories, when cherished creates rainbows of myriad hues with subtle shades of different emotions in the mind. It gives the true delight of life, which soothingly embraces the soul. One such memory is Mano anna.

There was no one in the street who didn’t know him, the mechanic Manoharan. Everyone calls him, ‘dey mechanic’. Dad and mom call him, ‘mano thambi’. To me, he is mano anna, my mano anna. I met him when I was six or seven years old. He was six years elder than me.

I am the only child at home. I can be spotted either roaming in the street, fighting with older boys, or in the mechanic shed after my school hours. There were at least a dozen kids and it was natural for us to squabble one thousand times each day. Though I got along well with everyone, I spend most of my time in mano Anna’s mechanic shop. At 15 he was the owner of this shop, Mano anna, unlike me doesn’t speak much, even if he speaks, I call it whispering. He is very soft spoken, who never loses him when dealing with people. He can be always seen working, with those grease stains all over him. All he knew in his life was his mechanic shop, his motor bike, his Bible, his harmonica, his volley ball and his few friends. He had an elder sister, who was studying in Chennai. He earned and spent everything for her. And more than anything, he is my good friend, a brother and my first male companion. I spent my childhood days in his company and grew up with him. My parents never objected or had problems with this. My grand-ma disliked me spending time with mano anna. There were times when she was rude and shouted at him for no reasons. I appreciated my parent’s efforts to pacify her, but every time they fail miserably in their mission. I had no problems over anything. I hate my grand-ma for her constant surveillance on me and her endless preaching on how-to-be-a-girl. I remember her constantly telling me that it is not good for a girl to have friendships with boys. I can very well understand my grand-ma. To her, her views and perceptions were right and hence she was reasonable. But I never personally believed in all that she told me.

I passed out of the school and took admission in the college. When I was in second year, mano anna got his sister married off .Things changed between us. He didn’t like me spending much time in the shop, rather never encouraged me. But he and our relationship remained the same. He will come to our home once in a while to help my dad and my mom in their usual chores. There was this one thing that I always wonder about him. He never went further our sitting room in our home and even when my mom insisted on eating with us on any festivals, he never accepted the invitation. He would always excuse himself and get the feast packed to eat in the shop with other workers.

And my mom for every Easter and Christmas would specially cook spice stuffed oil brinjal, puliogare, drumstick curry and pappads for him. I could only smile pitifully for him at the very thought of seeing him miss all the wonderful non-vegetarian feasts. I love my mom more for what she has been to him in all those years. When I was in Mumbai, I got his wedding invitation. I couldn’t attend his marriage for some reasons. I met Mano anna lastly in my marriage. He was there with his wife and his girl child. I felt good to see him after a long time. The child was six years old. I met him first when I was six years old. He had named her, ‘Avantika’. I couldn’t help but smile with tears for all that Mano anna had given me in my life- including my name for his daughter.

Two decades of life went turning me forty five. Life blessed me with two boys and a girl. Whenever I see my eldest son and daughter together, I’m reminded of Mano anna and me. I can now tell my grand-ma that my relationship with mano anna gave me a healthy view of men and women relationships. It helped me to trust men and understand that they are different and not bad. He thought me how important it is for women to be courageous in life. I teach my kids responsibility for I’ve seen what it is to be responsible even in one’s young age.

I remember those days of my life, when I’m in the mechanic shop with mano anna busy in his work. The only emotion I remember of Mano anna is how I cried softly when I first listened to his harmonicas magic. The only memory that lingers in my mind is the expression in Mano Anna’s face as he wiped the grease in his face with the back of his hand.